It is the beginning of the rest of my life.
As most of you know, I am currently extremely unsatisfied with my current situation. Therefore, I have taken the big step of taking 10 months off from work, and trying to sort myself out. I don't do things in small increments. I throw myself into whatever I want to achieve. I'm a goal-oriented, passion driven individual. These past three years have stifled any sort of passion that I had, and I have completely lost track of the goals in my life.
I think this may be a problem for many young professionals. We graduate, get a job, meet someone, get married, have kids, and before we know it, we have been doing something that we care nothing about for 20 years. We're told that it is called "growing up" or "being responsible" or even "our evolutionary instinct". But I don't want to be that person. I don't want to fit into someone else's idea of how I should be living, or continue to just do what is expected of me (yeesh, I did THAT for way to long, and look where it has gotten me now). I don't want to define my worth, or my happiness, by how I am perceived by those around me. I want to stop living for them.
I want to take charge of my life, and not let life just happen to me. I want to dream big, do amazing things, make a difference...and still be that same idealistic person that I was when I was 5, 15 and 20. The secret person that no one neither knew about, nor cared to ask about. I want to have the freedoem to make choices based solely on my own opinions and wants and needs.
Is this selfish? Probably yes. But do I care? Not really. I have spent so many years making other people happy, and living by others expectations for me...I've got to at least give this "living my own life" thing a try. And if it doesn't work out, in 10 months time, you can find me sitting behind my desk, tapping a pencil, and quietly contemplating how things might have been...
